Motherhood, Scripture, Thoughts

My Favorite Imprint

I know it may not look like much, but do you see that little mark that I’m pointing to on my arm? It’s happened to me a few times, and I love it every single time. That imprint is from my daughter Olivia’s ear, as she slept while I held her. I got, and occasionally still get, lots of them from her big sister Emma, too. Actually even more, because Emma hated sleeping alone. But that’s alright. 🙂 There’s very few things higher on my list of things that are precious than the time I get to spend with them sleeping peacefully in my arms, sometimes one or the other, sometimes both. They feel safe. They feel loved. They feel comforted.

Yes, I know that there are things I “need to do.” Yes, I know that my house isn’t always spotless. I try to make it decent at least. Really, I do. 😉 But nothing can replace that time with my babies in my arms. So I’ll clean when I need to, and hold my babies while I can. I want to soak up every minute of their cuddles, with their sweet little bodies pressed up against mine. <3

Oh, that we would rest in such a way in our Heavenly Father’s arms as well! He knows what we need, and when we need it. He is worthy of our trust and our love, and of us wanting to be safe in His arms.

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

~Matthew 11:28-29

Motherhood has at least a hundred and one things to pay attention to, all at the same time. Haha. Maybe sleepy babies are one of the ways God helps us to slow down, and take the time to rest more deeply in Him, too. 🙂 (If you keep your Bible nearby, or even a Bible app on your phone, it’s a great way to actually have time to read, too!)

So, to the Mama who feels guilty for holding her sleeping babies…

Please don’t feel like you’re doing something wrong! Enjoy those snuggles. If they nap well on their own, of course you don’t have to go scoop them up out of bed. But if they fall asleep on you, maybe that’s where they need to be. Maybe it’s where you need to be, too. 🙂

Scripture, Thoughts

I Don’t Want Things to Go Back to Normal

Now, before you write me off as being crazy and cruel for not wanting “normal” back, let me explain…

Before this pandemic started getting serious, we (generally speaking) were comfortable. We took so many things for granted. I know if you’re anything like me (hello, fellow extroverts! *waves from at least 6 feet away*), you enjoy getting to see people and interacting with them on a regular basis (spur-of-the-moment is fine too…). You know, things like going to a restaurant, dropping in to pick up a few things at the grocery store, hanging out with friends and family, going to church, throwing birthday parties and other celebrations, having people over for dinner…so. many. things.

And just like that… we don’t get to anymore. At least not the way we used to.

I think in a lot of ways, it has been a good but difficult reminder for us.

Think of this Scripture:

 

Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” But now you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.

James 4:13-16

You see, I’m pretty good at making plans. What I need to be good at is realizing and remembering that I can make all the plans in the world, but it is God who is in control!

Now, I’m not saying to not make plans. Plans are good things. The problem comes when our confidence is only in our plans and not God’s plans. We need to remember that as much as we can make plans, we’re not really the ones who can make them happen. That’s in God’s hands.

A good reminder…

So, what should we be doing? I truly think that all of this is a good reminder of what we normally have. Of what we normally take for granted. Here are some things for which I think we will have a renewed appreciation, when we’ve all gotten through this together (well, separately…):

  • Going to church
  • Tight hugs
  • Firm handshakes
  • Being with friends and family
  • Steady jobs
  • Food – grocery stores and restaurants
  • Birthday parties
  • Graduations
  • Concerts
  • Each heartbeat and each breath we can easily take
  • And yes… even toilet paper 😉

Let us truly say and mean, “if the Lord wills” when we make plans for the future…and, Lord-willing, truly be grateful when He does bring them to pass. Let that be our new “normal.” <3